Fathers Day 2013
Happy Father’s Day!
I will not be celebrating My Father today. It pains me to hear & see all the Fathers
day wishes. Because of my father, my childhood was an unhappy ugly time in my
life. A child of incest. I’ve loved/hated him. I’ve praised/cursed him. He is not/was not the father a little girl
growing up deserves. Yes, because of him, I was born. But that is all!!!
Do I care if he is Happy today? NODo I care if he thinks of me today? NO
He has taken from me something I can never get back.
So .. Today .. Father’s Day 2013 ..
I celebrate the important men in my life and
those good & decent men in my son & daughter’s life.
My uncle -- Who was there for me on my wedding day when my parents chose NOT to be. My uncle walked me down the aisle, held my hand and kissed me. I remember the fun times as a child visiting him and my cousins. He is so full of life & joy.
My uncle -- Who was there for me on my wedding day when my parents chose NOT to be. My uncle walked me down the aisle, held my hand and kissed me. I remember the fun times as a child visiting him and my cousins. He is so full of life & joy.
My 1st husband -- The father of my son & daughter. What attracted me to him was his ability to make me feel special. I meant something to him. As a young 19 yr old, that was exciting. We were both young; maybe too young for what was ahead of us .. Marriage, children, struggles with my depression & trauma of incest. Too much for a young couple to deal with. But he was and is an important man in our lives.
My 2nd husband -- When we met, I was a single mother of two young children. I was struggling with depression, divorce, anxiety/panic attacks. I was a mess!! But out of the darkness I met a man, who, when no one else could help & understand me, took my hand, told me everything would be okay, held me when the flashbacks/panic attacks occurred and after 15 years remains with me. He is my rock! I would not be where I am today without his strength and love and support.
My son -- The father of my 2 handsome grandsons. I must have done something right by him; Because when I see him, his wife, & children together .. This is how a family should be. He loves his wife tenderly with his whole heart, he cherishes his children and time spent with them. My son is my pride & joy .. A good man I’ve helped by the Grace of God to create. Out of the ashes of CSA & Incest, My son gives me new direction and meaning to my life.
So, today, this Father’s Day, if you are
struggling to celebrate the life of your father, I challenge you to find a male
figure in your life that represents all that is important and good in your life.
Remember them. Tell them they are important to you and why. Celebrate their
life & the meaning they have brought to your life.
Happy Father’s Day!
God bless!
I encourage you to follow me
Open
your eyes, as well as open your mouths. Incest is a silent destroyer
of everything good and beautiful in life. Our children.
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