My September Rainbow
Hard to believe another Labor Day weekend is upon us. Wow!
Where did the summer go? Looking back, I
think it wasn’t long enough. Not enough
fun. Not enough laughter. Not enough time spent with friends. Not enough time spent with (wait for it!) F A
M I L Y.
During the family
gathering, (in honor of my Son & my two grandsons who were visiting from
out-of-state, see also Anxiety Of Family Gatherings ), I
began feeling like
There it is; the dreaded word family. What can I say?! Labor Day should be a time of fun, laughter,
warm hugs, cool drinks, and Family. I won’t be seeing mine this year. The only ones staying in touch with me since
July have been my Son (& his family) and my Daughter. As for the rest of my immediate family.. ah,
not sure how they are doing these days.
The last family gathering, on July 21st, my husband & I
left kind of abruptly. I had one of “my
moments”.
- the “black sheep” of the family
- the couple from the “other-side of the tracks”
- I was a failure
- I was invisible
I could go on & on & on. I love my Son, his wife, and my two
grandsons; but when you put them all together with the rest of my dysfunctional
family, it is a nightmare. The emotional
pain I felt was unbearable. I felt like the longer that I spent at the reunion,
the less I could breath. The life was
being sucked right out of me. I had to
make it stop.
Finally, I got up out of my chair, said it was getting late,
time for my Husband & I to call it a night, and head home. As my Husband said our “goodbyes”, I headed
to the car. I wasn’t going to stick around and turn it into a 20 minute ordeal.
You know .. the hugs, kisses, thank you for dinner, “thank you for coming” and
blah blah blah. Empty words between
adults going through cordial motions.
All the politeness with all the syrup to go with it. Ugh!
Gag me with a spoon! (one of my favorite sayings).
I’m looking forward to this Labor Day weekend. Yes, I
am. No family gathering. No emotional
meltdown in sight. My husband & I will be spending time with friends &
neighbors who welcome us with the “warmth” and “love” that my family
lacks. Oh, boy, I can smell the BBQ
grill now! I can hear the laughter. The
sounds & aroma draw me in. I can’t
get away from it. Suddenly I feel happy,
silly, young again.
I hope you can
spend some time this holiday weekend with those that fill your soul with joy,
laughter, and love. At my age I’m
learning that LIFE really is too short.
There’s another stressful holiday coming up soon (I won’t mention which
one!). So let Labor Day weekend be one filled with beautiful memories. Say goodbye to summer & hello to
autumn. Enjoy the beauty of life.
Autumn is a second spring
when every leaf is a flower.
~ Albert Camus
Wishing you a “rainbow-filled”
Labor Day weekend!
(without all the rain)
The storm has passed. See the rainbow?
It’s beautiful. Life is beautiful.
And you are beautiful too.
© IAMicried
Visions of Rainbows
5/31/2013
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