Happy Birthday Visions of Rainbows!
Visions
of Rainbows is celebrating a milestone!
In 2012
I was struggling to find my reason, my purpose.
I had been laid off from a job that I’d had for several years. I couldn’t find steady employment. I was headed for a downward spiral
emotionally and feeling much like a victim.
I needed other Survivors of Sexual Abuse to talk to.
One day, I came across a Facebook page Out From Under for
victims and survivors of sexual abuse and incest. There I read a poem by page owner Viga Boland called Come
Out From Under. It was like a light
bulb turned on. I’d found what I’d been
searching for. After reading the poem,
and crying my eyes out; a post appeared on my FB newsfeed. “Thank you, (my name), for liking Out From
Under” (or something similar to that).
Either way, whatever was posted, the admin had tagged me in a status on
Facebook. Suddenly panic struck me. I felt like a stranger could see me. This stranger knew me.
I kept going back and forth to the page Out from
Under. After chatting with Viga, I finally
decided to join a FB Group for Survivors.
It was the turning point for me.
I met some wonderful people who shared similar stories of their lives
and abuse. I felt so comforted knowing
that what happened to me wasn’t my fault.
A huge peace came over me and I knew I had to do more than “hide out” in
a Facebook group. I needed to tell My
Story just like others were doing.
So on November 17, 2012, I created my blog Visions of
Rainbows and wrote my first post “After The
Tears”. Then my life changed
forever! I finally felt like I was no longer
a victim, a child being molested and sexually assaulted by my father; But a
Survivor! And I had wings! And I could fly, soaring higher than I had
ever dreamed. To date Visions of
Rainbows has had 5,993 page views from people all over the world.
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As a child, I was this little girl looking out her
bedroom, looking down her street, “Dreaming
About Prince Charming”. I never
thought anyone would want to listen to me or read about my family and my
childhood struggles growing up in the Midwest, USA in the 1960’s.
I’ve gone on to create a Facebook page, Visions of Rainbows and
have 275 likes. Through this page people
have shared their stories with me. I’ve
found my child-like voice and I’m making a difference in others’ lives. I’m inspiring and encouraging others & IT
IS SO AWESOME! Yes, there have been
difficult people to deal with; the haters, ones who don’t embrace my story or
my motives, the trollers whose only mission in life is to continue to spread
hate, lies, and discontent throughout Facebook and other social media. But I’m still here and more determined than
ever to bring encouraging words of inspiration & hope to those dealing with
their own Childhood Sexual Abuse or Incest.
Life has a way of balancing things out – the bad with the
good – the negative with the positive – the isolation of one with the support
of many. I am truly blessed and a
changed person than I was 3 years ago. I’m
a retired, disabled, victorious 54yo Grandmother who loves life! I have a
wonderful, loving & supportive husband who knows my story. When I’m feeling depressed or struggling with
memories of my childhood (and I still do); my husband is right there along side
of me holding my hand. I suffer with
panic attacks. These will happen at the most inconvenient times. But my husband has kept his cool and provided
a calming strength to get me through them.
He has shown me that love can be something so beautiful between two
people. In the beginning of our
relationship, he had to be so very patient with me. I’ve never met anyone like
him. He is truly My Rock and my Mr. Blue Eyes (my nickname for him because he
will wink at me).
I truly believe God has brought me to this place in my
life and has shown me how blessed I am. There was a time when I cursed the day
I was born. But no more.
Thank you to everyone who has written me or commented on
my blog. You have no idea how much you have
meant to me over the last 3 years. Now
as I look toward the future, I see The Rainbow.
It is my hope that through this blog and the work I’m doing on Facebook,
many more Survivors of Childhood Sexual Abuse and Incest will see Visions of
Rainbows too!
God Bless!
The storm has passed. See the rainbow?
It’s beautiful. Life is beautiful.
And you are beautiful too.
© IAMicried
Visions of Rainbows
5/31/2013
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This is beautiful hon and I thank you most sincerely for your contribution to our efforts to let victims of incest and childhood sexual abuse know that speaking out from under will lead to freedom. We must not those voices be silenced by the abusers and by ourselves. Speak out from under. Thanks for writing this and for the mention of my poem and FAcebook page.
ReplyDeleteViga Boland
http://www.vigaboland.com