Happy Birthday Visions of Rainbows!

Visions of Rainbows is celebrating a milestone! 

In 2012 I was struggling to find my reason, my purpose.  I had been laid off from a job that I’d had for several years.  I couldn’t find steady employment.  I was headed for a downward spiral emotionally and feeling much like a victim.  I needed other Survivors of Sexual Abuse to talk to. 

One day, I came across a Facebook page Out From Under for victims and survivors of sexual abuse and incest.  There I read a poem by page owner Viga Boland called Come Out From Under.  It was like a light bulb turned on.  I’d found what I’d been searching for.  After reading the poem, and crying my eyes out; a post appeared on my FB newsfeed.  “Thank you, (my name), for liking Out From Under” (or something similar to that).  Either way, whatever was posted, the admin had tagged me in a status on Facebook.  Suddenly panic struck me.  I felt like a stranger could see me.  This stranger knew me. 

I kept going back and forth to the page Out from Under.  After chatting with Viga, I finally decided to join a FB Group for Survivors.  It was the turning point for me.  I met some wonderful people who shared similar stories of their lives and abuse.  I felt so comforted knowing that what happened to me wasn’t my fault.  A huge peace came over me and I knew I had to do more than “hide out” in a Facebook group.  I needed to tell My Story just like others were doing. 

So on November 17, 2012, I created my blog Visions of Rainbows and wrote my first post “After The Tears”.  Then my life changed forever!  I finally felt like I was no longer a victim, a child being molested and sexually assaulted by my father; But a Survivor!  And I had wings!  And I could fly, soaring higher than I had ever dreamed.  To date Visions of Rainbows has had 5,993 page views from people all over the world.

Viewing Audience

Entry	Pageviews
United States	3706
Russia	607
Ukraine	486
Germany	212
Canada	131
United Kingdom	77
France	74
Turkey	45
Japan	40
Australia	28

As a child, I was this little girl looking out her bedroom, looking down her street, “Dreaming About Prince Charming”.  I never thought anyone would want to listen to me or read about my family and my childhood struggles growing up in the Midwest, USA in the 1960’s. 

I’ve gone on to create a Facebook page, Visions of Rainbows and have 275 likes.  Through this page people have shared their stories with me.  I’ve found my child-like voice and I’m making a difference in others’ lives.  I’m inspiring and encouraging others & IT IS SO AWESOME!  Yes, there have been difficult people to deal with; the haters, ones who don’t embrace my story or my motives, the trollers whose only mission in life is to continue to spread hate, lies, and discontent throughout Facebook and other social media.  But I’m still here and more determined than ever to bring encouraging words of inspiration & hope to those dealing with their own Childhood Sexual Abuse or Incest. 

Life has a way of balancing things out – the bad with the good – the negative with the positive – the isolation of one with the support of many.  I am truly blessed and a changed person than I was 3 years ago.  I’m a retired, disabled, victorious 54yo Grandmother who loves life! I have a wonderful, loving & supportive husband who knows my story.  When I’m feeling depressed or struggling with memories of my childhood (and I still do); my husband is right there along side of me holding my hand.  I suffer with panic attacks. These will happen at the most inconvenient times.  But my husband has kept his cool and provided a calming strength to get me through them.  He has shown me that love can be something so beautiful between two people.  In the beginning of our relationship, he had to be so very patient with me. I’ve never met anyone like him. He is truly My Rock and my Mr. Blue Eyes (my nickname for him because he will wink at me). 

I truly believe God has brought me to this place in my life and has shown me how blessed I am. There was a time when I cursed the day I was born.  But no more. 

Thank you to everyone who has written me or commented on my blog.  You have no idea how much you have meant to me over the last 3 years.  Now as I look toward the future, I see The Rainbow.  It is my hope that through this blog and the work I’m doing on Facebook, many more Survivors of Childhood Sexual Abuse and Incest will see Visions of Rainbows too!

God Bless!

The storm has passed. See the rainbow?

It’s beautiful. Life is beautiful.

And you are beautiful too.

© IAMicried

Visions of Rainbows

5/31/2013

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